MAYBE I SHOULD HAVE CARED LESS...

 It goes without saying that I am handicapped- handicapped in every way when I am put into situation liek this. Like this situation when i know not what to say and how to defend. All the time i keep on thinking, why cant i say someting that can make everybody go numbed at that instance and forever. I just want to see everybody jaws falling when Ispeak my final truth but I am tied up. why am i so tied up? I have no answer to that. i keep on falling in my own words of silence.
Can somebody please back me up and tale a tale for me?
you cant be expecting me to defend myself coz you know well that i am allergic to defence but you can shield me coz you are also falling in the same allegations.
when words are spoken to mean something, I do not ignore the meaning but I do not accept the meaning too. you are no part of me to echo on my behalf and i am myself, not to echo back to your ignorance....
I read somewhere, "LIFE IS BUT A BED OF ROSES" but dont foregt roses are adorned with thorns...
you may think life is beautiful with your sarcasm but trust me, your sarcasm, may madden somebody! least I am not that somebody to succumb but I will construct it as my rose of living....

I admit I am helpless in my own ways but I am not hapless in my ways....