SOMETIMES IN BETWEEN....

There were times when I thought of swallowing my pride and beg myself to go back to you. But There were also moments when I had the pride that I did the right thing in not looking back onto you or to the relationship that I chaptered in my life...

I miss you terribly but I know I have to move on not to miss my time. You had gone long before I stopped and now I cant rest to keep up with you....

P.S. I need to go but I can't go on ....

EXPANDABLE TRUTH...

The voice of my love...
flutes in with his move...
I hear him nearing...
when I look away from his wearing....
I take the chance to let him hold me ...
I dont make a minute move to thee...

SEARCHING YOU IN ME...

Whenever my day is over...
Before I let loose my hair...
Before I remove my nerdy looks...
Before I look at the blank wall...
Before I notice the setting of the time..
Before I put off those lights...
I always long to hear your voice....

Whenever the candles have been blown away...
Before I furrow in my bed...
Before I heave a big sigh....
Before I stare in the darkness....
Before I think of picking up my phone...
Before I call you like I always do...
I always wish to hear you whisper my name...

Whenever my head touch the pillows....
Before I wander in my dreams...
Before I look for you under my closed eyes...
Before I think of you yet again...
Before I sleep into another day....
I will always wish you be by my side when i wake up in the morning...

And believe your sleeping face before I start missing you again....

I wanna scream....

not much long ago, i was singing to the birds and whistling to the winds...
hours later, i was talking to the people and scribbling on the ground.
hour ago, i was fetching the water and mumbling to myself.
minutes ago, i was squealing like a animal and howling like a wolf.
seconds ago, i was raining the tears on myself and sobbing through the tears.
now, i am just standing and staring in the space.
i think i will burst out if somebody poked me.
i feel like losing myself to the wind and throbbing to the earth but all i can do is to wipe those tears away....
i can go wild any minute if you even look into my direction...
i think i am going to scream at the top of my lungs...

i wanna split this moment in countless pieces so that i can never jigsaw it again...