LIST OF LOTS....

I am not crying...
...its the tears that's flowing...

I am not sad...
... its just that the happiness is no longer with me...

I am not disappointed....
.... The gladness has just ran away from me....

I am not frowning...
.... the long-face is in action now...

I am not laughing...
.... the tears haven;t run dry yet....

Dry pillows doesn't always means dry eyes...
.... tears run dry when the pillows ain't wet....

Caught up in the Turmoil...

I haven't seen stars fade infront of their light...
I haven't witnessed the fall of the light after dawn...
Sometimes I lay awake and miss the light before dawn...
While I do so, I forget the light that I love after the dawn...

I try to catch my breath at dusk...
before the sun falls in the pitch...
I hold back my sight at the set...
But I can no longer see the setting sun...

I am bathed in orange light..
and I see red light far from afar...
I see the yellow merge with the grey...
and soon it is dark to see the pattern that follows...

I stand in the dark...
and miss the clamor of the day...
i yearn for the day to arrive..
coz I am too weary thinking in the dark...

I close my eyes to sleep...
and let my mind wander in my dream...
Alas! I see no dream...
and my eyes are no closed yet...

I cover my face in my palms...
and imprint my destiny on my brow..
I pray for a hope to come my way...
and I rest my prayers in the Hope that might come...

I lay back and try to forget my fears....
but I still fear my fears would return back to me again...
 I am sailing in my fears....
and I know I am drowning in my sail...