STEALING GLANCES

What if you are stealing from my eyes...
even though i know you come clean...
maybe you can let the curtain fall...
just to let me know that i am not blinded....
or else you can blow away the candle...
and let me see you in the dark...
must you run away from my wrinkles...
when i had enough of you erasing the lines...
why do i have to even care to call you...
when you are already talking to me...
what if you are spying on me?
and i know not of the spy but of the spies...
will you care to give me a smile...
when you see me giving myself a stupid look..
can you even held me in your arms..
when you are already fed with anger...
what if i block myself away...
will you even throw a stone at the wall ...
or will you spit on the walls that surround me?
i feel like saying,,, what if i mattered less to you and you mattered more to me?

LONG GONE BEFORE I OPTED OUT....

It was the broadest of all Broadways
and narrowest of all lanes....
I thought the best was just simply better than good
but I was not aware of the good...
the strangest of all thinking...
who was the best and who was the good?

there was one who had a heart but left out a little care...
there was another who cared more yet was out of tune with love..
some one was still there watching the scene but was more of a observant....
A figure was standing tall in the light but was drowned in his own shadow....
I met that clown who thought I was the joke of his life...
I also remember that intelligent looks who wore half a nasty smirk...
and there were countless of the few who had words to spare....
but had bullets to throw...

I am circling in the thoughts of whomsoever...
and I am constantly being caught in the net of where?

THE PRINESS DRAMA...

 


A MOMENT OF TRAIL...

TO BE STERN IS NOT THE ISSUE...

IT IS THE SEIOUSNESS THAT WE SHOW ON OUR FACE....

WHEN OUR HEART IS FULL OF PRIDE FOR THE LIFE THAT WE OWN....

COUNTING THE STEPS ON THE THRONE IS NOT THE PASSION OF THE QUEEN...

BUT REALSING THE STEPS TO THE THRONE IS NEARER FOR THE PRINCESS....

MAKES THE QUEEN SMILE FOR LIFE....

THERE'S ALWAYS A TIME FOR FUN AND LAUGHTER....
A SEA OF SMILES...
FOLLOWED BY THE SPLASH OF LIFE....
AN OCEAN OF LAUGHTER.....
INTERWINED BY THE WHAIL OF HAPPINESS.....
A FOUNTAIN OF TEARS....
FALLING IN BETWEN THE LAUGHTER AND THE SMILES...

LIFE IS ABUNDANT WITH JOY....
WHEN THE TIME IS SEIZED INTO IT!!!!!!!!




SOMEWHERE.....

somewhre beyond the sea...
i got to say./...
u were there..
n i wasnt thr wid u 4 u...
mayb b'coz smwhr beyond those seas..
i had to stay...
close by you to be wid you...

LOOKING OUT OF THE WAY.....

WALKING IN THE MISTY WORLD ...
WHERE THE GREY SKY HAD TURNED ITS SCARLET
GLOW ON THE FACE OF THE GROWING DARK...
I AM STILL WALKING FORWARD FOR YOU...
PLz HELP ME FI ND YOU IN THE DARK.....

When the nights are dark....
I look out of the window....
and I see the stars shining in the murk....
When I am in the dark; at the window....
I look out for the moon in the lurk...
and I see the crescent light falling on my window....
When I am bathed in the light of the dark....
I look out for the image created by my shadow....
and I see the figure looking out in my mark....
When I am standing in the light of my shadow...
I look out for the light missing beyond  the murk....
I see the dark enveloping the light on the window...
When I am lost in the circle of the missing mark...
I look out for the diminishing sight of his shadow...
and I see nothing opaque in the light of the lurk..
When the nights are shivering under the lost shadow.
I look out for the lines dropped from the crack....
and I see the crevices running deep in bow...
When it runs in between the lines of the blind dark...
I look out for the walking steps on the rainbow...
and I see the sliding of the fleet away in the murk....
When the night is ending on the foot of the shadow...
I look out for the morning sun to rise beyond the shadow in the murk...
and I see the moon disappearing bright in the backdrop of the blue meadow...

GETTING LOST...

Some day I might miss this space...

........WAITING FOR YOUR COMEBACK......
Hoping you walk in through the same door where you left
me imprisoned waiting for you....

where I had rented all of it for your runaway.....
Some where I might miss this face....
which drew me into a trance not known...
Some day I will miss this chase....
when I had run along with your steps....
Some where I will miss this pace...
when I was running with your perfect steps....
Some day I shall miss this grace....
where I had found peace everywhere....
Some day I shall miss this embrace....
where I had found solace in your arms...
Some day I will miss this craze....
when I had walked miles for your glance...
Some day I will miss this blaze...
Which you had splashed all over my life....
Some day I might miss this maze...
which I had weaved to get lost with you....
Some day I might miss this space...
where I could reach you within a blink of my eye....
Some day I shall look for you....
in my heart and in my eyes.....
Some day I shall watch you stare.....
when I will be nobody's stranger but a passer by.....

VALENTINE BLUE'S

it is a hazy day with norms of cloud and speck of darker clouds...
 it is a cloudy day with inklings of love lost in the wind and blown to the shore....
it is a gusty breeze that is rushing up my breath....
i dont like the feel of it but i am in love with the cold breeze....
i am not addicted to the aura of love swirling in the air...
this time, last year was so different and so in love...
this time it is so out of love but so in love with it.....
guess... i am running for myself when i am walking out out of it....
i miss you, my valentine
but i am addicted to the missing part.....
i wish i was there with you ....
more than that i wished that i was never departed from you in the first place...


Happy valentine!!!!!!!!

P.S. you are reigning over me.....

SERIOUS CONFUSION??????????

Why cant the world be still?????????? it revolves doesn't mean it has to spin everything around in circles....
making living dramatic and complicated still more.....

This is a hard trial and a very hard effort to be still and not care about anything that falls in its place.....

Please Life.... be good to me and stop inflicting your complications on me....

P.S. I am still naive!!!!!!

NUMB FEELINGS....

lost in the wind of life.... or rather lost with the wind and blowing along with the speed....

I am not in the pensive mood to alter anything that is going on right now but i am adamnant to stay in place and time.... this is the threshold of living life out of pace....


cant even calm myself ... i know i can get you in the wing but i am engaged in arranging my flight towards you......

P.S. i still owe myself an apology....

SORROW OF A SMILE...

Its hard to erase the moment of the time gone by especially when it still pierces the heart....
 I wouldn't have gone by and leave everything behind in my trash if only you had the courage to stop me from moving ahead. It would be jealousy if  I stop myself from moving forward leaving you behind but you gave me that option which I had no desire for. I rather waited for you to give me only one option not to look ahead without you sharing the view, but alas! you didn't....
I would be scared to sail high with tears in between my smile... i rather cry and let the smile bloom after the tide has ceased..