SOMEWHERE.....

somewhre beyond the sea...
i got to say./...
u were there..
n i wasnt thr wid u 4 u...
mayb b'coz smwhr beyond those seas..
i had to stay...
close by you to be wid you...

LOOKING OUT OF THE WAY.....

WALKING IN THE MISTY WORLD ...
WHERE THE GREY SKY HAD TURNED ITS SCARLET
GLOW ON THE FACE OF THE GROWING DARK...
I AM STILL WALKING FORWARD FOR YOU...
PLz HELP ME FI ND YOU IN THE DARK.....

When the nights are dark....
I look out of the window....
and I see the stars shining in the murk....
When I am in the dark; at the window....
I look out for the moon in the lurk...
and I see the crescent light falling on my window....
When I am bathed in the light of the dark....
I look out for the image created by my shadow....
and I see the figure looking out in my mark....
When I am standing in the light of my shadow...
I look out for the light missing beyond  the murk....
I see the dark enveloping the light on the window...
When I am lost in the circle of the missing mark...
I look out for the diminishing sight of his shadow...
and I see nothing opaque in the light of the lurk..
When the nights are shivering under the lost shadow.
I look out for the lines dropped from the crack....
and I see the crevices running deep in bow...
When it runs in between the lines of the blind dark...
I look out for the walking steps on the rainbow...
and I see the sliding of the fleet away in the murk....
When the night is ending on the foot of the shadow...
I look out for the morning sun to rise beyond the shadow in the murk...
and I see the moon disappearing bright in the backdrop of the blue meadow...

GETTING LOST...

Some day I might miss this space...

........WAITING FOR YOUR COMEBACK......
Hoping you walk in through the same door where you left
me imprisoned waiting for you....

where I had rented all of it for your runaway.....
Some where I might miss this face....
which drew me into a trance not known...
Some day I will miss this chase....
when I had run along with your steps....
Some where I will miss this pace...
when I was running with your perfect steps....
Some day I shall miss this grace....
where I had found peace everywhere....
Some day I shall miss this embrace....
where I had found solace in your arms...
Some day I will miss this craze....
when I had walked miles for your glance...
Some day I will miss this blaze...
Which you had splashed all over my life....
Some day I might miss this maze...
which I had weaved to get lost with you....
Some day I might miss this space...
where I could reach you within a blink of my eye....
Some day I shall look for you....
in my heart and in my eyes.....
Some day I shall watch you stare.....
when I will be nobody's stranger but a passer by.....

VALENTINE BLUE'S

it is a hazy day with norms of cloud and speck of darker clouds...
 it is a cloudy day with inklings of love lost in the wind and blown to the shore....
it is a gusty breeze that is rushing up my breath....
i dont like the feel of it but i am in love with the cold breeze....
i am not addicted to the aura of love swirling in the air...
this time, last year was so different and so in love...
this time it is so out of love but so in love with it.....
guess... i am running for myself when i am walking out out of it....
i miss you, my valentine
but i am addicted to the missing part.....
i wish i was there with you ....
more than that i wished that i was never departed from you in the first place...


Happy valentine!!!!!!!!

P.S. you are reigning over me.....

SERIOUS CONFUSION??????????

Why cant the world be still?????????? it revolves doesn't mean it has to spin everything around in circles....
making living dramatic and complicated still more.....

This is a hard trial and a very hard effort to be still and not care about anything that falls in its place.....

Please Life.... be good to me and stop inflicting your complications on me....

P.S. I am still naive!!!!!!

NUMB FEELINGS....

lost in the wind of life.... or rather lost with the wind and blowing along with the speed....

I am not in the pensive mood to alter anything that is going on right now but i am adamnant to stay in place and time.... this is the threshold of living life out of pace....


cant even calm myself ... i know i can get you in the wing but i am engaged in arranging my flight towards you......

P.S. i still owe myself an apology....

SORROW OF A SMILE...

Its hard to erase the moment of the time gone by especially when it still pierces the heart....
 I wouldn't have gone by and leave everything behind in my trash if only you had the courage to stop me from moving ahead. It would be jealousy if  I stop myself from moving forward leaving you behind but you gave me that option which I had no desire for. I rather waited for you to give me only one option not to look ahead without you sharing the view, but alas! you didn't....
I would be scared to sail high with tears in between my smile... i rather cry and let the smile bloom after the tide has ceased..

SOBER YET FULL.....

It always goes back to the time when things were not as easy as it used to be... thoughts of love and anguish always lingers in my mind... i know not what to comprehend of the situation that i am balked in now...

its always tricky and misguided....

i need resilience and much more...

P.S. leave me liveless.....

BID ADIEU.....

Cold Autumn night and I am crawled in my bed thinking of the times when i felt warm in your arms. I was remembering the times when I stole away myself to see you and kiss you endlessly under the starlit sky. I remember longing for the day when i could freely walk in your arms and be with you forever. i didn't had the courage to walk out of my bed and rush into you but i gathered my heart to call you once again after those bitter moments. I missed you terribly and all I wanted was to hear you call my name yet again and whisper those magical words.
oh! boy, you did picked up the call and i heard you say my name but it wasn't the same anymore. I could feel the warmth in your voice gone and all i could feel was your objection to your words. You promised me my world and you were shunning you world onto me. If only you would believe me and my words, i promise life would have been a dream come true. I won't tell you to keep on loving me when all you have for me is lack of it and everything...
hold on boy, I am not deeply broken yet. i am just scattered within myself and  i am searching for the moment to gather up and get back to my own...

P.s. dont you feel sorry for the broken wings coz i still have the fleets to get on going...

SOMETIMES IN BETWEEN....

There were times when I thought of swallowing my pride and beg myself to go back to you. But There were also moments when I had the pride that I did the right thing in not looking back onto you or to the relationship that I chaptered in my life...

I miss you terribly but I know I have to move on not to miss my time. You had gone long before I stopped and now I cant rest to keep up with you....

P.S. I need to go but I can't go on ....